Assignment 18- Taetum Crawford

Bucket List

High School- before I graduate high schools i want to...

1. have an actual date to prom/ an actual romantic relationship

I know, it's short. it probably made you laugh when you read it. Silly boy crazy teenage girl, so it seems. but It's more than just some superficial wanting a guy just because. I want to feel that cliche moment of euphoria so many girls have described when the guy the guy they've liked for months finally asks them out, and the  Moments I've read about, seen, moments that I've never felt. Sure, I've had moments that came close. I've led off with home runs that broke records. I've won medals and awards for Archery and Softball, my dresser top is loaded down with them. But I've never been on an actual date. I've gone and gotten food, watched movies, and played video games with guys before. But it was never a date. i have many close guy friends, but that's all they are. friends. its a mutual friend zone because these guys are my brothers and best friend. I could never date them.
I've hugged them when one of us needed it, we've all told each other we loved one another and meant it, when my best friend had to have an emergency surgery to remove his appendix i kissed him on the forehead and told him i was glad he was okay. But all of those were not done out of a romantic infatuation. It was done out of love between people who might as well be family.

Now this isn't just a, I'm boy crazy and want a boyfriend. it's also fear driven. I plan on pursuing a career path that makes starting new relationship almost impossible. I know that i want to get married someday and have kids, but how can i do that when i cant even find a partner? my career will begin in college, so high school feels like my only chance. I'm Desperate, i still have standards, and won;t date someone just because they asked me to. I feel embarrassed writing this, knowing that anyone can read it, but I have nothing left to cross off that's meaningful.

College

1. FBI internship
2. degree in Forensic psycology
3. successfully Apply to the FBI, CIA, or other Intelligence organization

That career path i mentioned, the one that will make any attempt at a relationship past high school difficult. That's this bucket list. To put it simply, I've wanted to be a spy since i was a little kid. My favorite show was Kim Possible, and as I got older I was entranced with every Cop show, spy show, spy book, Hero tale I could get my hands on. NCIS, McGeyver, Chuck, Criminal Minds, marvel character such as Black widow, Hawkeye, Falcon, all of it. I trained. My uncle T is an army Ranger, my Papi a cop, I have an Uncle who works for  NASA, and another relative in special forces. i convinced them to work with me, teach me.  My pawpaw was an accomplished martial artist, and he taught me some sword and hand on hand combat. My Uncle T would spar with me, teach me how to escape and throw a proper punch. He used to grab me by my ankles and tell me to do fifty sit ups before he would let me down. It's always been my dream, and I plan to pursue it.

Life

1. live past thirty
2. get married and have two kids before thirty
3. save lives

This one is simple. My life has been anything but "ordinary" and that is unlikely to change anytime soon. And I wouldn't have it any other way; but those first two are "normal" things that i want to have. I wish to be able to raise a son and daughter, teach them to be the type of people I aspire to be. i want them to grow to be better than I ever could.
 I want to make an impact. Helping people has always been my priority, often to a fault. But fault or not, i plan to continue that. in some capacity i want to be the reason some someone gets to see the next day; that a parent gets to see their spouse or child one more time; or that a child gets to grow up and live a better life. I admire those that strive for that, and want to be one of them.

There's my bucket list. It's short, but it covers the basics of how i hope my life turns out.