Fears - painful unexpected death (mine or someone I care about), living a life without purpose, the unknown
Annoyances - bigotry, obliviousness to others
Accomplishments - maintaing a healthy long distance relationship, running a YouTube channel
Confusions - betrayal, bigotry
Sorrows - letting anxiety rule me, closing up when people try to become close to me, my diet (why's all the tastiest stuff gotta be so unhealthy?)
Dreams - directing a feature film, accepting an Academy Award, raising a family of dogs
Idiosyncrasies - my brain thinks in stories (mostly movies), life is like a big story to me
Risks - my career (broke artist life is inevitable but boy do I want), zip-lining
Beloved Possessions, Now and Then - my extensive collection of notebooks (then), my Canon SLR camera (now)
Problems - motivation (in schoolwork)
My most notable idiosyncrasy melds into my dreams. Literally. My brain is wired to think in stories, so at night, my dreams play out like films. I'm the protagonist; I see the events from various camera angles; I hear some kind of score in the background. As fun as this can be, my storyteller mindset comes at a cost at times. I tend to expect a nice linear story to unfold in my life, but that's not how life goes. I don't have a script to tell me what's next. Life just happens. And we roll with it. The unknown terrifies me more than it excites me, but that's just the director brain. Forever craving control in a world of the unexpected.
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