Assignment 4- Ben

I have greatly struggled especially these past few years with my faith. I know that most people struggle with this at many points in their life, but I feel like this has hit me extra hard. Don't get me wrong, I still consider myself a Christian, but I will openly admit I have had points in my life where I completely questioned everything about my faith. Let me start by explaining that I have grown up in  very modern Christian family. We may not go to church every week, but we do pray before every family meal, and I have grown up around religion, as my parent's parents, and their parent's parents have been heavily religious, so it has been very hard for me struggling with my faith, as I don't really have anyone in my family to turn to who I can talk to about my feelings. For most of my time, I don't believe I struggle with faith, but It hits me particularly hits me when something hard happens in my life.
I think the biggest example of this is when my dad had a heart attack, my dad was hit by a massive heart attack when I was in the eighth grade. This may sound normal, but my dad was in his early fourties  so I particularly questioned if their was I spirit in the sky, why he would let this happen to my dad, just a couple days before my birthday. struggling with seeing my dad in the hospital was very tough for me and my brother, as the only thing we could think of on our birthday and in general, was if our did would live through the night or not. Thankfully my Dad did make it through that night and many more, eventually being released from the hospital and returning to home and living a much healthier lifestyle. We all later learned the name for the type of heart attack my dad had was the "Widow-maker" which has earned its name because it is one of the most deadly heart attacks you can have, so if there is a big man out there, I thank him for keeping my dad with me.